Do you remember being a kid and when you got sick and you missed a day of school, thinking that the world would stop turning simply because you were not there? I do! I remember talking at night to my girlfriends and as they shared the events of the day, I would be thinking what? that happened? no way? how is it possible that everything keeps going even though I am not there?! Really?! Simply put…the world does not revolve around me! That was an eye opener in junior high! Now I just wish the world would slow down so I could catch up on all of my to do’s!
I have spent today running around like a crazy woman and contemplating how did I get here? How did I get to be so busy and feel like I am accomplishing zero? Well, I still don’t have the answer…I really haven’t had the time to develope it! Ha!
I know part of the answer is I love being involved and included. So I volunteer. For only a couple of key groups that I am truly passionate about. But it is enough to fill my plate full time. On top of that, I have two full time businesses that I run- well, try to run; sometimes they run me…into the ground! I left the corporate world six years ago and launched my interior decorating business. Lately, I wonder if I was hasty in my decision to launch this business. I think I launched it as more of an escape from corporate america than as a true desire to start a business. It is a business, but I am not a business person. I would love to hold myself in the highest esteem and present myself in such a manner. But the truth is no, I am an artist. This has been a new discovery over the past year…but I really wish someone would have filled me into this fact seven plus years ago! It would have solved a lot of problems and saved me a lot of heart ache and guilt. Yes, guilt. I feel guilty at times for not being a business woman. I feel guilty that I am not on top of everything, that my books are not in tip top shape, that I don’t run reports like P & L, etc. I HATE that kind of stuff! I LOVE to create! So there you have it, I am not a business woman. Oh what a relief to have that off my chest, now the world can know!
Enjoy,
Deidra {Dee Dee} Roe